I love Waterville, Maine. I always have; but, it’s so much better when I’m not feeling the doom and gloom of being “stuck” or wishing I’m somewhere else.
Uprooting myself to move to Florida was one of the best solid decisions of my life.
I’m pretty sure that my friends and family didn’t think I would actually uproot myself and disrupt my family to move across country, 1,500 miles away from home – especially after living here my entire 36 years of life; but, I did.
The initial move was hard, period – both financially and emotionally. I didn’t realize how lonely Florida would feel. And I didn’t anticipate how being and “empty-nester” would affect the mix of relocation emotions.
I secluded myself in a “strange” environment.
Actually it’s really good. I am able to focus on myself and my work. The solitude is allowing me to block out all the negativity that was surrounding me. It also allowed me to identify characteristics of my lifestyle that were actually holding me back – things I never really thought about.
Plus I started strumming the guitar; so, there’s that.
To my surprise, it seems (from my unofficial market research) that other people see my relocation as an accomplishment. I guess it is; however, my brain doesn’t think like that. I don’t usually pat my back when I achieve something. I just say, okay now what?
But, I can relate. I recently ran into a high school buddy who just finished hiking the entire Appalachian Trail. It made me interested. I wanted to pick his brain. I knew he was goal driven. I wanted to know more about his goals and aspirations. He’s the type of person I want in my circle. Clearly, I took his number. Side note: He also has family in Vietnam. More on that topic later.
Point being, I love Maine. I love my family. I love my friends; but, I need to live by my own terms. This is my only life – that I know of – and I want to explore. I want to push myself to the limits. I want to love. I want to feel as much as possible and experience as many things as possible before the grave calls me. And if I can avoid that phone call, trust me I will. I’ll just be like sorry tell it to voice mail, cause ain’t nobody got time for dat.